I haven’t written in a while, but what do you expect? I have a life you know. I actually have things I need to do.
Well, the reason why I’m writing an entry now was because Kisa started asking if I had written anything this past year. I kind of…. didn’t. Well you can’t blame me, can you? I mean, I have to take care of Hinata and all. And my mother. I can’t exactly trust her to take care of herself most of the time. She’s just as accident prone as that Tohru woman! But… Kisa did buy me this thing so I guess I should use it.
I’ve been thinking about that a little. Since she bought me this, maybe I could buy her something in return. OKAY. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not ecstatic about this whole journal writing… thing. I don’t like being cooped up in my room writing about my wonderful days of adolescence. No. But, it just… I don’t know. It feels weird. Something in me tells me I should get her something. To make her happy, you know? I’m still kind of mad at myself for what I let happen last year.
No, I shouldn’t think about that. Everythings better now. She’s happy. That’s all I ever really wanted for her, and I’m glad that she is too.
Oh crap. I am writing about my feelings. I jinxed myself. A slumber party in a cute little sheep notebook… dear god.
Just today, I passed by I group of girls that were whispering about Kisa-san. At first, I reminded myself that Kisa-san is uneffected about it nowadays. So, I didn’t really do anything about it.
Then, that’s when that thought struck me. The reason for Kisa’s troubles at school in the first place, and the whole mess she got into. It was my fault. I was too weak to there with her. I couldn’t stand up for her. I felt so weak! Like a little defenseless child! I hate being like that more than ever.
And then, for some strange reason, that thought lifted. Something inside of me told me that Kisa-san is counting on you. Then I realized that my true strength is for being there for Kisa when she needs it most.
The rest of the day, I felt a lot better. That feeling inside of me, for once, I felt that it had lifted. And I knew that Kisa had noticed because she seemed to be happier herself. And more than anything, I really do want to take her ‘nee-san’s’ advice, and become that prince that can always protect her.