Strange days

March 24th, 2007 at 2:10 pm | Comments (14) |
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The other day was a strange one. I felt like I was floating. It was only when I got home from school that I realised I couldn’t remember anything about the day. Not in a Black way, but just in a… dazed way. All I remember is staring out of the window during a Physics class, and looking down over the city. It was snowing, which was weird. It hasn’t snowed for a while. It wasn’t the stereotypical cotton-wool fluffy type of snow, that softly settles without a sound. It was a whirling spiral, a lashing blizzard that seemed to throw itself to the ground, and hurtle itself back into the white skies. Lost snowflakes drifted towards the window and bounced away, rising again like small mosquitos. Mosquitos, that’s what I thought they were at first, a swarm of them. I thought that was a strange combination. Mosquitos in the snow. Reminds me of cream and coffee. I didn’t really understand why the snow seemed black when it was close to the window, probably something to do with light or eyes. I should have really been paying more attention in Physics, maybe we learn about light in class.
I watched the snow for a whole hour. I don’t think my teacher even noticed. He was trying to teach us about the origins of the universe. What is outside the universe? When were we all brought to existance? I couldn’t comprehend it at all. It made me question little things. What is love? What’s the point of everything if all we do is appear on the earth, and vanish away almost as quickly as we began? I thought of Rin, and I smiled. For that split second, before I remembered we weren’t together anymore.

But I’ll win her back. I’m sure of it. I don’t think she realises quite how much I like her.

Schoolwork

December 10th, 2006 at 3:42 pm | Comments (6) |
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There is so much schoolwork to do lately…I have barely seen Yuki , as he is so busy with schoolwork and the school council. Honda-san is having difficulty juggling her job, her duties as a ‘housekeeper’ and her schoolwork, and even Kyou has had to limit his visits to the dojo to once or twice a week, as he is busy with both schoolwork and, due to Yuki being busy, helping Honda-san with her homework. Though, he doesn’t seem to mind… strange… once, there was a Kyou so obsessed with fighting and with being strong, that at times he even alarmed me. Yet now… he seems to have changed so much. And Yuki too… he seems to have changed every since he joined the school council. Is this a normal process of growing up?

I myself, feel as though I have not changed. It’s pathetic… despite the mountains of schoolwork I have to do, everything I do reminds me of Rin. Every scent, touch, sound. All that is left from her absence are questions. Is she thinking of me? Does she really not care for me? Has she found someone new? These are the questions I dwell on, night after night, when everybody else is fast asleep. I wonder, now, if I have yet grown up, or if there is still so much for me to learn.