Today!today was like any other long day..Another long count till the day I die in this world of numbers and morons. I yell and they never understand, it’s my way. It’s always MY way! And if they don’t listen I’ll make them suffer it’s the same way every time, but I guess at this rate nothing will change. The reason for this journal is to let out the other side of me I never show. Then again, this is my other side and no matter what they say I’ll ALWAYS envy them all. I never chose this, never will choose this.

My mothers just like the rest of them, a big pain who deserves to die for me not me for her. This is ALL her fault that disgusting bitch who chose to make me this way. No one can really know I’m a girl and not a boy because of her. It’s all her fault for making me like this, her and my father for letting me become the head of family. Do they all really think I want to die!?

I have so much anger and pain inside I guess it’s why I take it out on others, but for some reason, no matter how much I think about it. I enjoy it. I enjoy it with every breath I draw whether painful or easy to come. No one shall know my tragedy but me and this piece of paper. And if either shall spill it away, I shall spill them away for all of eternity.