Where is it? Where is it?!!!! I just know some idiot at Sohma House broke my favorite tea cup today. No one will fess up to it. Why must everyone try to antagonize me when I do nothing but sacrifice everything for this family?!
I destroyed the kitchen trying to find it, breaking nearly every glass in the house. The glass!it was everywhere. Why does everyone have to go against me!!!
My cup, my precious cup. Dammit! I hate this! It was my favorite cup!my father gave it to me. When he handed it to me, I remember his words clearly, â€œI bought this for you, Akito. It was hand painted by a skilled artisan in a village just north of here. See the pattern on the rim of the cup? It symbolizes the animals of the zodiac. Look here is the dog!â€? I studied that cup for hours when he gave it to me, tracing my finger around the rim of the cup. He was so kind to me!he held me!I loved him so much.
Father!.I miss you.
It’s been a few weeks now since Tohru’s accident. I do wonder when she’ll be able to return to school. The last thing I heard was that she was afraid to face Kyo, and going to school might be a little more difficult for her because of that. I wonder why she doesn’t want to see Kyo. Did he hurt her?
Well, whatever it may be, I hope it’s resolved. I would hate to see Tohru in pain.
I’ve been thinking, and thinking a lot. Only the older Jyuunishi know I’m female. I was wondering if I should just go on and tell the younger Jyuunishi that I’ve lied to them about my gender and come out of the closet so to say. However, I’m worried. What if they’re intimidated? Would they ever look or treat me the same way again? Will their hearts turn against me?
All this worrying is stalling this difficult decision to show them who I really am.